Long walk

Tonight I went for a long walk in search of answers. It took me two and a half hours to get home and I don't know if I got what I was looking for. Instead I found some other things. Which is totally fine with me.

The question I wanted to have resolved when I left on my walk was 'Will I work in the computer field when I'm finished school, or will I work in the social services field when I'm done school?' But really, the original question was flawed.

First of all, life is not a destination, but a journey. All that means is that the notion that you find a job and then are set for the rest of your life is somewhat dillusional. People change jobs multiple times throughout their working lives.

Second of all, the question is based on the notion that working in social services is what I should do because it would help me relate the brokeness of the human condition through contact with the homeless/less fortunate. However, that notion is also flawed because the brokeness of the human condition carries throughout all walks of life, all the way from James Norrie to Sister Joan. There is no escaping it, but you cannot go anywhere without seeing it. Even at the BBQ store it is there.

I find myself asking many people what they think of various choices about what I should do with my life. No one has given me a satisfactory answer. I suppose that it is one of those things that no one can figure out for me.

Only one question is left, "What would You have me do with my life?"

and until the answer comes, I will just wonder. Tomorrow is another day.